I set my intention
Do people even blog anymore?
In August of 2006 I started law school in New York City. It was huge. My husband and I - barely married a year - decided I'd go ahead and move from Stockholm to New York. He eventually joined me. I wrote a blog "a l'anvers" as an outlet for my experience during those years. It was for me, for my family.
My son was born in 2009 and I stoped writing. So much has happened since. He is now turning 13. I have a daughter soon to be 6. So much has happened. My mom was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in 2019. Months later, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Chemotherapy. Immunotherapy. Seemingly endless rounds of it. Needles. Lots of Needles. Surgeries. Traveled through many tunnels. Radiation. Bodies battered, bruised, disfigured, scared. Exhausted. Unrecognizable. She passed away in November 2020. No time to really process it all. Before she left, she said to me:
So here I am. Trying. Couples therapy. Individual therapy. Homeopathy. Acupuncture. Functional medicine. Chiropractics. Constellations. Meditation. Prayer. Supplication. Consultation. Step by step. Not giving up.
Write they all say. Journal. Put your thoughts on paper. Stream of consciousness. It will put things in perspective. So here I am. Writing.
The story of a life lived. Fully. Set the record straight. Truth. Justice. For them. For us. For me.
I set my intention.
My son was born in 2009 and I stoped writing. So much has happened since. He is now turning 13. I have a daughter soon to be 6. So much has happened. My mom was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in 2019. Months later, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Chemotherapy. Immunotherapy. Seemingly endless rounds of it. Needles. Lots of Needles. Surgeries. Traveled through many tunnels. Radiation. Bodies battered, bruised, disfigured, scared. Exhausted. Unrecognizable. She passed away in November 2020. No time to really process it all. Before she left, she said to me:
"Kam kam, Ruz be ruz [Little by little, Day by day]. Don't forget it. Not leaps and bounds, just baby steps. Just keep persevering. Don't give up."
So here I am. Trying. Couples therapy. Individual therapy. Homeopathy. Acupuncture. Functional medicine. Chiropractics. Constellations. Meditation. Prayer. Supplication. Consultation. Step by step. Not giving up.
Write they all say. Journal. Put your thoughts on paper. Stream of consciousness. It will put things in perspective. So here I am. Writing.
The story of a life lived. Fully. Set the record straight. Truth. Justice. For them. For us. For me.
I set my intention.
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